12.07.2014

A year and more later

Posted by Benazier M Besmaya at 17.16 0 comments
This is me a year and more later. I'm amazed and embarrassed of the old me when she wrote this blog... she seems bold. Interestingly i like her.
Time didn't change anything except my ovaries' age and things that stress me out.
First threat is my mini thesis. It needs revision soon... and that's a hell of revision. I'm not born to be a researcher i guess.
And after that, there will be something bigger waiting. Comprehensive test for my internship. I'm just glad i went to those clinic waiting on patients because it did really help my nerves. I'm sure i'll make it.
I decided to tell the story of people in my life from now on. It's gonna be fun!


P.S.: I've got a new sign!! it's better :)

9.06.2013

This is not Meds School *anymore*

Posted by Benazier M Besmaya at 13.56 0 comments
Really. What kind of meds student waking up at 5 a.m *to pray, or sometimes at 6* and then sleeping again until 8? What kind of meds student having nothing to do other than staring at the ceiling or listening to the music? What kind of meds student screaming out of the blue because she's bored as hell?
Since new rules had been in my university, this is the kind of meds student I am. It's like I am not anymore.
I.have.fucking.time.to.rent.movies.
What kind of meds student is that?
Even I'm sick of myself.
The new rules are made by the Chief of Department, who apparently has son studying here, my junior. The story began when her son were told to go to campus at 6 a.m. (only at 6) to attend supplementary lecture from senior before they went to the lab. It was autonomic rule from the lab. But, rumor said that the boy didn't want to attend it and decided to run to tell his mom. And you can guess what's next. The day after, all of labs was prohibited to make any lectures such that anymore.
The excuse was because there was no rules to force students going at dawn to the campus to study. It was like illegal action going on.
So what? Just because there was no rules doesn't mean it was against the rules. You're just lack of rules, bitch!
But, this state's really happened. And for my year who doesn't have much lab anymore, it kinda doesn't affect us. But, poor my juniors, they'll never have no sleep for 2 days because of pretests, reports, and lectures from labs. I'm sure they will be in shock when they go to hospital in coass state.
It's just I'm so fucking sick of people who use their power to make the surrounding favorable for them. Don't they know, people are going to badmouth them?
I hope in my deepest heart I'm not going to be that kind of woman.

Bagaimana kalau...

Posted by Benazier M Besmaya at 13.34 0 comments
keputusanku untuk menjabat di organisasi ini salah? Bagaimana kalau aku memang orang yang payah dalam berurusan dengan orang lain, terlebih lagi berurusan dengan orang lain dan uang?
Niatku memang baik: supaya bisa terbiasa berbicara di depan umum sekaligus melatih mengatur finansial. Tapi berbakatkah aku?
Bodoh. Yang namanya mengurus uang memang bukan soal bakat. Tapi benar-benar aku tidak tahu sama sekali mengenai hal ini.
Bagaimana jika aku tidak amanah?


 

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